In 15 minutes Ian can not having anything by mouth for 12 hours. And he will be poked and prodded many times over. I'm so anxious about this test. Not even about the results, but about how Ian will feel as his mommy betrays him over and over letting people poke him again and again. How will I explain why I can't give him any food or drink while he's starving and has low blood sugar? We had to do that so many times when he was younger and admitted but at least they were "feeding him" via his IV. Not this time. How can I explain why I let them shoot him with Glucogone, which will most likely make his heart race and cause him to vomit horribly?
He's at the receptive age where he will have a very difficult time understanding all of this. Because to be honest, I don't either. Is this the right thing to do. Should I have forced another opinion? I tried to get in with a doc at CHLA, who is supposed to be amazing. They needed Ian's clinic notes from UCLA, which I requested by fax but didn't follow up soon enough to find that they never rcvd my request.
So we will go in the morning. Luckily it will be 5 hours and done. As long as it goes well. His blood sugar will drop and I will watch this??
Today was insane, by design, kind of. I was literally running from appt to appt all day. Between the WISH drop & evening WCA meeting was a visit from a friend stressed with the IEP/school situation, Ian's 5 appts, and another cockroach treatment (super fun right?) I ended the evening with a night of Bunco with MOMs Club friends, which was a lovely couple hours. It sure kept my mind off of things... until now. Now heading to bed with "assistance". No way would I sleep without a little help tonight.
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