A wrap, a car seat, a bath and formula update at end of day 5-14.

Today was a little better than yesterday. I did realize before I was to leave for the hospital that I hadn't cleaned up the car seat that was sitting in the hallway ready to go a couple of months ago. I also pulled out from under the bathroom counter the little bathtub we had used for Lila which was covered in dust (The night nurse who was on Thurs night asked if I could bring it in for him to give him a proper bath tonight). Why didn't I do this during the week while I was sick, I don't know. Anyway, I gathered these and my various carriers (Moby Wrap, Ergo w/Infant Insert & a Sling) to try out.

I was on the phone all morning trying to coordinate various things. Some of his supplies were going to be delivered to the house and some to the hospital. Mike agreed to work from home in the afternoon in anticipation of this. I also had dropped by Therapy West (a place close to the house that does OT & PT) Thurs and called them again to follow-up, as well as calling the insurance case worker to try to understand a bit more of how everything was going to work and be covered.

I finally arrived at the hospital by the noon feeding and by the time I left, it was nearing 11 pm. I don't have time to outline the day hour by hour but will do an overview. I did all the feedings, diaper changes, etc. At one point of fussiness, I decided to whip my Moby Wrap on and try him in that. It had been a while but it came back to me. He loved it! His big noggin had to be doubly secured but I was able to do that quite easily. The trick will be where to put the oxygen tank when he's in it. They are delivering a small tank to the hospital, supposedly with a shoulder strap, so maybe it'll work. Eventually, I'll just have to trust it without the pulseox because I can't imagine walking around with him still connected to that.

Later in the afternoon, during another fussy episode, I decided to try him in his car seat. The nurse needed to see him in it for a while to make sure his vitals didn't change with the angle he was sitting. Again, he loved it! Just like in the wrap, he went right to sleep! I think he's just so ready to get out of there that anything different is soothing to him. He might just be so bright that he knows these things means he's leaving, which also makes him happy ;-)

So the last in my title list was not such a happy moment. I knew it was coming but could not have prepared myself for hearing, "We are out of milk." This was so upsetting! I know, I need to just get over it but any nursing Mom could relate. When I left this morning, I looked at the few bits of milk in my freezer and thought, I should bring this in. It wouldn't have made that much of a difference. He's now on 90 cc's every three hours. I'm producing between 30 and 60. It's easy math. Despite all of my attempts to increase my supply, acupuncture, herbal supplements, teas, different pumps, meditation & even beer, I'm not pumping nearly enough to sustain him. So frustrating and sad but a reality.

The evening bath was kind of exciting, although Ian definitely did not like it. He screamed the whole time. I have a feeling once we are home it will be different. Not so sure about the little bath combo I have. It's hard to get him comfortable. There's a new thing you put in your sink which I think I'll try when home. In a weird way it was kind of fun to wash off his little body. Reminds me that, yes, he is my baby and I need to care for him. I've definitely got to place an order for more Arbonne Baby Wash though. The stuff they use makes his skin so dry. (I'm an Arbonne rep but a much better user than seller ;-)

As is neared 11 pm, I realized I needed to get home for some rest. I kissed him goodby as he snuggled all clean in his crib. Gathered up my things and headed off to pump my way home.